Day 27 Reflections
(I realize I have pretty much failed to make good on my promise to
blog about my meals. Sorry about that...) So I am nearing the end of my 30 days. It's been good, for the most
part -- especially to realize that I do have it in me to give up
dairy, if I want/need to. It has also felt good not to eat sugar...
though I will admit that I have consumed more dates this past month
than I care to count. So, the sugar monster has arguably just changed
forms... What's frustrating to me now, as I stare down the final three days, is
the realization that I actually still have a lot of my same symptoms.
My skin is lovely and clear -- probably the biggest perk of the month.
And my overall level of tummy upset has probably been less...
probably? Yes, it has -- I haven't needed to rely on my activated
charcoal tablets at all, and they had become pretty commonplace in the
past few months. But still, I am surprised at how much still seems to
set me off, even on a super-clean diet. It's given me a sense of
resignation about the fact that I just have a really sensitive system.
I'd like to think that I could someday heal this, but clearly it's
going to be a slow-going process, and it's not going to happen of its
own volition. So when I think about re-introducing dairy, part of me is nervous...
but part of me feels reckless, like I might as well, because if eating
too much asparagus can cause me so much tummy distress, then why the
heck am I depriving myself of butter!? Maybe that's not even my
biggest problem! On the other hand, I actually don't miss it THAT
much. I'm on vacation right now and I probably would have enjoyed some
cheese last night, but it didn't kill me to skip it. I'd love to put
some heavy cream in my coffee, but I'm doing fine without it. Etc. I
roasted a chicken last night and brushed it with refined coconut oil
instead of butter, and it was still totally delicious. I'm mostly just rambling here. I guess I'm just bummed, because I
don't feel like I'm finishing with a clean slate, which makes the
whole "careful introduction in order to track reactions" thing a
little less compelling. It will be interesting to see what causes my
first break-out, after I start introducing things, but I don't think
I'll be able to tell much from my belly reactions alone, because those
never really went away. That's all I got for this morning. Happy weekend!
blog about my meals. Sorry about that...) So I am nearing the end of my 30 days. It's been good, for the most
part -- especially to realize that I do have it in me to give up
dairy, if I want/need to. It has also felt good not to eat sugar...
though I will admit that I have consumed more dates this past month
than I care to count. So, the sugar monster has arguably just changed
forms... What's frustrating to me now, as I stare down the final three days, is
the realization that I actually still have a lot of my same symptoms.
My skin is lovely and clear -- probably the biggest perk of the month.
And my overall level of tummy upset has probably been less...
probably? Yes, it has -- I haven't needed to rely on my activated
charcoal tablets at all, and they had become pretty commonplace in the
past few months. But still, I am surprised at how much still seems to
set me off, even on a super-clean diet. It's given me a sense of
resignation about the fact that I just have a really sensitive system.
I'd like to think that I could someday heal this, but clearly it's
going to be a slow-going process, and it's not going to happen of its
own volition. So when I think about re-introducing dairy, part of me is nervous...
but part of me feels reckless, like I might as well, because if eating
too much asparagus can cause me so much tummy distress, then why the
heck am I depriving myself of butter!? Maybe that's not even my
biggest problem! On the other hand, I actually don't miss it THAT
much. I'm on vacation right now and I probably would have enjoyed some
cheese last night, but it didn't kill me to skip it. I'd love to put
some heavy cream in my coffee, but I'm doing fine without it. Etc. I
roasted a chicken last night and brushed it with refined coconut oil
instead of butter, and it was still totally delicious. I'm mostly just rambling here. I guess I'm just bummed, because I
don't feel like I'm finishing with a clean slate, which makes the
whole "careful introduction in order to track reactions" thing a
little less compelling. It will be interesting to see what causes my
first break-out, after I start introducing things, but I don't think
I'll be able to tell much from my belly reactions alone, because those
never really went away. That's all I got for this morning. Happy weekend!
